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“I’m so sorry…..”
Gah. Mari’s being super pouty with me right now. And it annoys me.
For real, I make him do all kinds of awfull stuff, story/rp wise. But, today…. Goddamn. He just wouldn’t work with me at all, he fell over…. He REFUSED, to stand properly. I mean posing him is a bitch, but now it was just insane, tried putting him in a tree, all failed. he pinched me between joints, and i fell over myself, got hit by a tree branch…
He scares me right now, and pisses me off at the same time. I aint picking him up the rest of the day…
This pic is so sad, i like how it turned out…
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“A lil’ birdie told me to stop hidin. Maybe not in words, but I knew he was right. I’m ashamed of the world, seein me for who I am. But this is me afterall. These marks makes me who I am, yet they dun define me. Yet, there’s is no way I’d go outside, like this. All eyes glarin at me, judgin. Sometimes I think that’s the only thing this world’s good at. Assumptions, war, judgement, or pointin the finger to others… Oh, an’ spend a shitload on new roads we dun need. They have, no… Idea…. What some ppl are goin thru. Some ppl have fought wars, seen death, been in battles…
Well? I’m in a constant battle too, with myself. Dun judge me.
Tellin me names won’ make ya feel any better. Dun assume, dun judge. This world scares me enough, we dun need ppl like you in it. You ppl make me hide under long sleeves… “look, that kid’s gonna kill himself, boohoo emo”
Even when no one will say that, that’s what I can feel them thinkin. I have no intention to leave, dun worry. Even when I think this world’s filled with shit, there’s also some good stuff in there, I jus’ havent found it yet?”
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Aaaalllright alright. I was asked about writing about Mari.
Luckily I had some inspiration left of me. Better now then never, cuz knowing me. I might forget, I’m rather chaotic.
Where to start. I guess he’s a character I dont really relate to. Maybe on minor things. Because I like to believe, characters are tiny bits of creation of one’s self. No matter how they are, they always have this little piece, or something they share with you. They are… Creations from one’s imagination afterall. So they have to based on certain believes, ideas, ambitions, dreams, knowledge etc that you have yourself. I hate to give a character a certain trait, or job, or language I’m not farmilliar with myself at all. It makes it less real right? Sure, I do have a few that are finnish, for example. But they dont speak the language at all. So that way they still come off realistic.
Back to Mari. Again, I hardly relate to him. He’s what I call that manly uke, he’s quite short. Really short even, but he has a big mouth. Which tends to lead him into trouble. I often compare him to a Chihuahua. Small but think they’re ten feet tall and bark when they feel threatened. He either goes for something a 100% or not at all. Which can be problematic at times. I guess this is where we share something alike. I have that annoying quality myself.
He’s nonetheless I guess a stronger character, though he finds himself easily defeated by life.
Before I tell more about his persona, I guess this is a very important thing to know. At the age of 20 Mari was in a terrible car accident. He was driving, with two other friends, and they crashed into another vehicle on the highway. The other two were injured, but no scars to hunt them for a lifetime. Mari, however. Took the biggest blow, the front window bursted and pieces of glass got to his right eye. (which explains that one blurry/brown pupil looking eye) he’s blinded with that eye.
He also believes he has a certain curse on him… He never really found love, and everyone he has been with so far, ends up leaving him. Using him and then when he tends to fall in love, they screw him over.
Which happened recently as well, and he’s been through nothing but shit lately. Picking up bad habits such as harming himself, which was something he did as a kid as well. But just small stuff such as roughly scratching his arms. Which is now far from that, became actuall cutting. Which started in a very bad time in his life right now. And when things are suposed to go better. He now faces an addiction.
And sad to say, he feels like everything he does is pointless he lost a decent reason to live. And sometimes believes he was meant to die that day of the crash.
I wish I had nicer things to tell about him. Hm, maybe how he cries at almost every movie? He does, he’s rather addicted to energy drinks and fastfood. And he doesnt really mind eating pizza for breakfast during the weekends. You only live once right? He currently lives with Nolan, and works as his assistant cause he needs the money. Aside it…. He did some stuff for money he wasn’t really that proud of, first, now it isn’t even that much of a big a deal anymore.
He’s rather emotional as well. Even when he sometimes hides behind a tough exterior. Words tend to hurt him a lot, and he finds it hard to let go of certain stuff. If people have treated him badly, he’ll most likely remember it forever. Maybe forgive, but wont forget.
Maybe some small facts, I’m feeling less inspired somehow. Okay, so he owns a Ferret. His name is ‘Sir Batman the Third’ …Yeah.
He plays the Kitara, which is a digital guitar. It’s capable of making all kinds of sounds. go ahead, youtube it!
His future is a black hole to him, he doesnt really have a dream or ambition to live up to. And kinda lives just day by day.
Damn, inspiration just hit the gutter. Sad, well again, if anyone has anyone interesting question. Dun hesitate to hit the ask button! ^^
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